Steve, 16 Days Sober
. I knew Steve and I moving in together would bring challenges, but I just did not realize I would struggle with being more compassionate to Steve’s struggles. I remember how moody I was when I first tried to get sober. I remember the mood swings for no apparent reason, the strength of the emotions that would vertebrate through my body, the frustration at myself for not being able to control how I feel. I even remember the confusion at having so many emotions all at once and worse having emotions I did not have names for. So you would think I would be able to be okay with Steve’s struggles, but I find myself frustrated at my own limitations. Generally I am okay with his emotional swings, but where I struggle is when he is okay and want to be a loving couple again. Of course that happens, but he wants it to happen instantly or on his time. This does not allow me the time to work with my emotions on my time and I am afraid if I do not go with the flow I will make him angry, frustrated