One Year Plan 1/5
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Work with my sponsor and AA meetings was the first of the of my five things I needed to do to change my life for the better. It all starts with staying sober and doing what is asked of me by the program of Alcoholics Anonymous and by my sponsor's suggestions. I am aware very keenly that everything is contingent of the success of this goal.
Honestly, I will admit to being distracted by my relationship with Steve and that may have impacted my priorities at the beginning. What I found surprising is that it was not the main factor to my lack of attending meetings and staying in contact with my sponsor. Some where in the end of october thru December until the first of Janurary I did not go to as many meeting I needed to. Then I ended my relationship with Steve and I have been at the center of AA with no looking back. I intend to keep it that way too.
What has been the most difficult has been the lack of the imenant need to go becasue of fear of relapse due to the change that occured after my session on life support. As I mentioned in a previous post my mind is so clear of the alcoholic chatter which I call the "white noise of alcohol". It did have a major impact on how I associated to my surroundings and myself. It took away the desperate need to be in meetings because I was afraid I would drink. Now with the white noise gone I don't feel the added need to go because I feel liberated and safe for the first time. I'm not stupid I am an alcoholic and that will never change so meetings and working with my sponsor are imperative and must continue.
Since the break up I have rededicated myself to my one year plan and I have been making more meetings. Looking for a great Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous book) Study group so I can really delve into the book as never before. To study it as an academic book and apply the suggestions to my everyday life. I am on Step 4 and working on my spirituality in conjunction with the steps. I have signed up to do service work at the Central Service Office for AA. I decided to do phone duty where I would answer phone calls of people who have questions about AA, AA meeting and such. I am socializing more with AA member and have started to attend my old home group at 7am, gosh! I am also working on a workshop for the Lambda Round-up.
All in all I am right where I am suppose to be. I feel I am doing better than ever and hope that I continue to reap the benefits of AA. I know one thing and one thing only when it comes to AA. Everyone who enters the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous is capable of getting sober, everyone I believe it to the core of who I am. I also did one thing right all these years and I think it has been the most important to date. I kept coming back. In doing so I am still alive and sober today.
Today I believe in me.
Work with my sponsor and AA meetings was the first of the of my five things I needed to do to change my life for the better. It all starts with staying sober and doing what is asked of me by the program of Alcoholics Anonymous and by my sponsor's suggestions. I am aware very keenly that everything is contingent of the success of this goal.
Honestly, I will admit to being distracted by my relationship with Steve and that may have impacted my priorities at the beginning. What I found surprising is that it was not the main factor to my lack of attending meetings and staying in contact with my sponsor. Some where in the end of october thru December until the first of Janurary I did not go to as many meeting I needed to. Then I ended my relationship with Steve and I have been at the center of AA with no looking back. I intend to keep it that way too.
What has been the most difficult has been the lack of the imenant need to go becasue of fear of relapse due to the change that occured after my session on life support. As I mentioned in a previous post my mind is so clear of the alcoholic chatter which I call the "white noise of alcohol". It did have a major impact on how I associated to my surroundings and myself. It took away the desperate need to be in meetings because I was afraid I would drink. Now with the white noise gone I don't feel the added need to go because I feel liberated and safe for the first time. I'm not stupid I am an alcoholic and that will never change so meetings and working with my sponsor are imperative and must continue.
Since the break up I have rededicated myself to my one year plan and I have been making more meetings. Looking for a great Big Book (Alcoholics Anonymous book) Study group so I can really delve into the book as never before. To study it as an academic book and apply the suggestions to my everyday life. I am on Step 4 and working on my spirituality in conjunction with the steps. I have signed up to do service work at the Central Service Office for AA. I decided to do phone duty where I would answer phone calls of people who have questions about AA, AA meeting and such. I am socializing more with AA member and have started to attend my old home group at 7am, gosh! I am also working on a workshop for the Lambda Round-up.
All in all I am right where I am suppose to be. I feel I am doing better than ever and hope that I continue to reap the benefits of AA. I know one thing and one thing only when it comes to AA. Everyone who enters the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous is capable of getting sober, everyone I believe it to the core of who I am. I also did one thing right all these years and I think it has been the most important to date. I kept coming back. In doing so I am still alive and sober today.
Today I believe in me.
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