I Am Amazed!
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I was at a Big Book study about a month ago and we reading Bills Story when I had another truth reveled to me from Bill's own story. On page 4 last paragraph - Mercifully, no one could guess that I was to have no real employment for five years... It hit me like a freezing blast of wind, that's me I thought. Why had I not seen this before. I also had not foreseen not working for over two years in my profession. In fact I would not work at all due to my addiction and need to take care of myself first before I could even consider going back to work. The revelation was comforting in a odd way because it came from the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. It was another indicator that I am all over the book and because of it the solutions must work for me too since it worked for so many others.
What gave me hope in one day being accepted back into my profession was the story of the airline pilot who lost his license and through the work in AA he was given his license back and fly again. This story always had special meaning for me because it showed that with AA in my front pocket I could get back what I had lost because of my addiction. Well that day arrived on August 12 when I walked into my old supervisors office and sat down to see if it was possible that I could be employable again.
As I sat down to speak with her I knew regardless of what occurred it would be okay. I also knew that my former supervisor would be kind and loving so that helped with me being able to ask for my old job back. After a few pleasantries she asked "So whats up Benny?" and with a deep breath and a nervous smile I said, "I'm here to about a job". Her first response was surprise followed by a fretful look and the words "Oh, Ben." I knew that the chances were slim, but I continued and told here the truth and what I have done in the past two years to take care of myself. She knew my situation so I was able to share more openly compared to other people in my life.
I explained how I was taking care of myself physically, emotionally and the work I have done to get and stay sober. Then I mentioned that it had been over 2 years since I had worked for her company and that seemed to open the door a bit. When it was all said and done I looked at her with humility and hope and asked, "If it's possible I would like to work here again." Then with sparkling eyes and a comfortable ease she smiled and said "Of course, of course its possible." and with that I was employed in my profession of choice once again.
When I left I just was taken aback how fortunate I am today. I believe whole heartedly that my life and all the blessings in it are due to the work I have done in AA and with outside professional help. Above all it is because of the relationship I have with a High Power and my spiritual practice. None and I do believe that none of it would come to pass without the program and fellowship of AA.
Today, I am amazed and I am not half way through.
I was at a Big Book study about a month ago and we reading Bills Story when I had another truth reveled to me from Bill's own story. On page 4 last paragraph - Mercifully, no one could guess that I was to have no real employment for five years... It hit me like a freezing blast of wind, that's me I thought. Why had I not seen this before. I also had not foreseen not working for over two years in my profession. In fact I would not work at all due to my addiction and need to take care of myself first before I could even consider going back to work. The revelation was comforting in a odd way because it came from the Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous. It was another indicator that I am all over the book and because of it the solutions must work for me too since it worked for so many others.
What gave me hope in one day being accepted back into my profession was the story of the airline pilot who lost his license and through the work in AA he was given his license back and fly again. This story always had special meaning for me because it showed that with AA in my front pocket I could get back what I had lost because of my addiction. Well that day arrived on August 12 when I walked into my old supervisors office and sat down to see if it was possible that I could be employable again.
As I sat down to speak with her I knew regardless of what occurred it would be okay. I also knew that my former supervisor would be kind and loving so that helped with me being able to ask for my old job back. After a few pleasantries she asked "So whats up Benny?" and with a deep breath and a nervous smile I said, "I'm here to about a job". Her first response was surprise followed by a fretful look and the words "Oh, Ben." I knew that the chances were slim, but I continued and told here the truth and what I have done in the past two years to take care of myself. She knew my situation so I was able to share more openly compared to other people in my life.
I explained how I was taking care of myself physically, emotionally and the work I have done to get and stay sober. Then I mentioned that it had been over 2 years since I had worked for her company and that seemed to open the door a bit. When it was all said and done I looked at her with humility and hope and asked, "If it's possible I would like to work here again." Then with sparkling eyes and a comfortable ease she smiled and said "Of course, of course its possible." and with that I was employed in my profession of choice once again.
When I left I just was taken aback how fortunate I am today. I believe whole heartedly that my life and all the blessings in it are due to the work I have done in AA and with outside professional help. Above all it is because of the relationship I have with a High Power and my spiritual practice. None and I do believe that none of it would come to pass without the program and fellowship of AA.
Today, I am amazed and I am not half way through.
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